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by Sara Eggers
"Lord, please make me a light for you in my
class today," I whispered. This simple prayer
was a habit as I walked across green lawns
and past the red brick and ivy of the University
of Idaho. I prayed this prayer on the first day of
my communication ethics class, never
imagining the impact it would have on my life.
We crowded into a classroom without enough
seats for everyone: a common scenario on the
first day. I sat on the front row; paying respect
to the tradition that front-row students get A's,
and because I need glasses. The instructor
came into the classroom a few minutes late.
He introduced himself and announced that he
taught using the Socratic method. He then
asked, "Who believes there are absolute right
and wrong ethics?"
I immediately raised my hand, looking up to
notice that, in a class of more than 70
students, only a few others were also raised. I
assumed more hands would rise. I assumed
that my hand would blend with hands over
most of the class in an almost anonymous
poll. I assumed wrong. The professor pointed
to me and asked, "Why?"
Alas, I was a victim of the Socratic method. By
raising my hand, I was asking for
interrogation. I was not ready to answer.
Though I do not remember what I said, I
remember well the reaction to my words.
Several students began to laugh. The
classroom was roaring with voices of dissent,
and one student took the opportunity to yell at
me. The professor ended the class by
explaining that there cannot be an absolute
right and wrong system of ethics.
I left class that day embarrassed and
enraged. How dare that professor do this to
me? I can't believe that they laughed at me! I
wish I had said the right thing, that I wouldn't
have sounded so inept.
At that time, I was involved in a Bible study of
Philippians 2:5-11 called The Mind of Christ.
In it, we discussed the attitude Christ had
toward those who would eventually nail Him to
a cross. It prompted a lot of self-reflection and
I realized I was looking at my professor as my
enemy, instead of loving him.
Philippians 2 has always been one of my
favorite passages. Phillippians 2:7 and 8
reads Jesus "made himself of no reputation,
and took upon him the form of a servant and
became obedient unto death, even death on a
cross." I realized how un-Christlike my attitude
was toward this professor. My thoughts were
retaliatory. I needed to be a better
ambassador for Christ.
I was on the spot for the Lord. It was not a
position I sought; some would say it was
coincidental. But I knew God had arranged
that situation. When I prayed that first day of
class, I had no idea I would be put on the spot
before everyone I prayed for. It was a general
prayer; I didn't expect it to be fulfilled so
directly, so completely. I was thinking small,
like loaning someone a pen with a Bible verse
printed on it, or maybe even telling one person
that I have a relationship with God that
changed my life. I didn't go before the class
with persuasive speech or great influence.
From then on, I did my class work as one
working for the Lord. I prayed that God would
continue to arrange opportunities for me to be
a witness for Him. God answered that prayer
abundantly! When we received our first papers
back in class, the professor threw another
curve ball. "There were some exceptional
papers written," he said. "Sara Eggers, will
you read your answer to the first question?" I
started to read from my seat. "No, come stand
up here and read it." Tears started to form in
my eyes. I was genuinely frightened. What if
they yelled again? My paper actually quoted
the Bible! I stood, knees shaking, and read the
paper without looking up. When I sat down,
the class was applauding. Several students
said, "Good job." The professor announced,
"The only paper in the class to use the term
antinomianism. She even quoted the Bible."
For the rest of that semester, I read every
paper I wrote in front of the class. I addressed
all sorts of issues, including adultery and
absolute truth, according to Biblical standards.
Students commented, "I could never write like
that." I couldn't either. Every word I wrote was a
gift from God. It got to the point where I knew
as I wrote the papers that I would be reading
them aloud. I started looking forward to these
days with some excitement and a lot of fear.
The next semester, I took another class from
the same professor. At the end of this
semester, my professor told me he was
leaving the University. His Idaho experience
was not what he expected. He said goodbye,
and told me that having me as a student
made his time in Idaho worthwhile. In all my
time as his student, I never knew this
professor to be prone to flattery. In fact, it was
quite the opposite. Until that point, I wasn't
even sure my professor liked me! That is why I
know his words were genuine.
This experience blew me away. I spend a lot
of time falling down, stunned at my own
failures. I never expected to be used by God in
such a dramatic way. Today, we are all in a
battle that can't be fought in courtrooms alone.
It is a battle for men's hearts and minds.
When we are willing to be laughed at,
scorned, and humiliated for Christ, we will be
blessed. It is not easy to write these words. I
have been laughed at many times for my faith,
and it is not exactly fun. I didn't ever see my
professor fall to his knees in repentance. But I
know that God worked through me in some
way when I was willing to be humiliated for
His sake.
I encourage all students who share my faith
to pray that they, too may be put on the spot for
their faith, and given a chance to shine like
stars in the heavens. I do not seek to be
obnoxious and offensive, but certainly bold in
witnessing to others. May God bless you richly
as you seek the Lord's will in this area of your
own life.
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