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My husband and I like to surprise each other. I'm not talking
about leaving little unexpected gifts on each other's pillow
(although maybe we should try that sometime because it does
sound nice ...). No, we like to jump out unexpectedly around the
house and scare the pants off each other. Call it the delightful
anticipation of total terror, if you will. Obviously, we don't get
out much. But to us, it's sheer fun.
I'm not even sure how it all got started. I think I accidentally
surprised Jeff while coming around a dark corner one night.
When the surprise-induced pains in his chest and left arm
dissipated, we both laughed our heads off. He made a point to
"get me back" later that night ... and I recall he hid in our
pantry. I remember innocently reaching for a Fig Newton on the
shelf and discovering the devil instead. Jeff quickly performed
CPR on me, and as soon as I regained consciousness, we
laughed ourselves silly.
We've been doing this for years. We even have a little ritual
dance where the surpriser twirls around and sings, "I
gotchoo! I gotchoooo! I gotchoo!" while the surprised
jumps in utter horror and curls into a fetal position ball in mid
air. As time goes on, we've realized it has become more and
more difficult to perform a high-scoring surprise on the scare-
o-meter. That's because we're expecting it.
For instance, if I haven't seen Jeff around the house in a
while, I would never nonchalantly waltz into a dark closet
without expecting him to jump out of a hamper. You've got to
be ready. Similarly, Jeff's learned that just because I tell
him I'm going up to take a shower before bed doesn't mean that
I've haven't turned on the water to trick him and I'm actually
hiding under the bed waiting to grab his ankles in the dark. (Boy,
that one was a doozie!)
It seems as I've gotten older, I've started to expect
surprises. Not just from Jeff hiding in the armoire, but from life
in general. I've discovered that if you're ready for anything,
you're just not as fazed by the unexpected. An emergency c-
section? I'm ready. A cut in my husband's salary? We'll improvise.
We're out of coffee? Hm. Well, now that could be a
problem.
While I can usually handle most of life's curve balls without
being too caught off guard, I wonder at times if I'm more
focused on being ready to face the hardships in this life
than I am to face the glory in the next. I pride myself on
my ability to cope through difficult times. So rising above tough
circumstances isn't my problem. What I need to remember is
that God wants to use difficult times to draw me to Himself, not
draw me into feeling good about my own self-sufficiency.
The apostle Peter reminds me that this life's surprises really
aren't "all about me" when he writes, "Dear friends, do not be
surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though
something strange were happening to you" (1 Peter 4:12).
I like how The Message finishes off this thought in the
next
verse, "Instead, be glad that you are in the very thick of
what Christ experienced. This is a spiritual refining process, with
glory just around the corner." It's incredible for me to realize the
glory Peter talks about us sharing is Christ's —
that's what I need to be ready for. That's what I want my life to
reflect: eager anticipation of sharing the glory of Jesus.
Jesus said, "So you must also be ready, because the Son of
Man will come at an hour when you do not expect Him" (Matthew 24:44
). To be honest, there are times when I've I said, "Come
Lord Jesus, come ... just let me get married first." Then it
changed to "Lord could you wait until I experience the joy of
having a baby?" And I shudder to think that I recently thought,
"Jesus, please come ... just as soon as I enjoy my new carpet for
a bit longer." OK, aside from the carpet, can you relate? Why is it
so easy to let the worries — or even pleasures — of
this world take our focus off the eternal glory for which we were
made?
I am ashamed to admit that there are days when I know
Jesus' second coming would literally surprise the socks off me.
I'm not expecting it at all. Most of the time I'm not even thinking
about it. I'll think more about whether or not I have time to hit
the sale rack at The Gap. Or I'll feel sorry for myself because I
have to clean toilets. Can you imagine the joy we'd feel in our
hearts if we were to keep Christ as an ever-present thought
from day to day? If we lived as if we expected Him to come at
any moment? During traffic? During a job interview gone south?
During a not-so-fun phone call with your mother?
The fact is, Christ does come to us now, in the day-to-day
moments, and in a very real way. While I know there are many
days when I'm not expecting His second coming, it's even more
humbling for me to admit that I often forget that Jesus comes to
me now when I'm not expecting Him. How much richer
would our faith be if we trusted — and expected —
Christ to show us His presence in any given moment of our
lives? He is ready to surprise us with a still small voice. Are we
ready for those encounters?
My first year out of college I worked full time in a shelter for
homeless people. One day a homeless man named David drew
me a beautiful picture of praying hands that I've saved to this
day. On it he inscribed, "Jesus is here watching our blind
surprise." It's as profound a thought to me now as it was back
then. Imagine the possible scenarios with me: You find out you
did not get the job you knew would be perfect for your career.
And you get angry. Confused. Anxious. Jesus is there, watching
your blind surprise, knowing that you haven't the faith to realize
that God has a purpose for you. That He, Himself closed the
door to this job to protect you and direct your path. Or the
woman you thought would be perfect for you doesn't think you'd
be perfect for her. And you feel hopeless. Lonely. Forgotten. Yet
Jesus is there, watching your blind surprise, knowing that you
have forgotten God wants to give you the desires of your heart
in the timing that He's planned for you.
I love how A. W. Tozer tells it like it is. In his powerful book,
The Pursuit of God, he wrestles with the question of
why we, as ransomed children of God, suffer with blindness or
"numbness toward spiritual things." He answers with the
humbling truth that we struggle with "chronic unbelief." He
writes, "Sin has so clouded the lenses of our hearts that we
cannot see that other reality, the City of God, shining around us.
The world of sense triumphs. The visible becomes the enemy of
the invisible; the temporal, of the eternal."
But there is hope for the blindness. Tozer encourages
believers to focus upon God and His Word "and the things of the
Spirit will take shape before our inner eyes." When we see our
lives with this eternal perspective, we won't be surprised by the
hardships of this world. We'll expect Christ to come and meet us
in them. And He will. He will surprise us with joy and peace now.
He won't dance and sing, "I gotchooo! I gotchooo!" But He will
say, "I've got you. I've got you and I'll never leave you."
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